So I gave Michelle basically a week to decide what she wants to do. I asked her to be my girlfriend because that’s what I want right now. What she decides will be my final answer. If she does not want me, then so be it. I will move on without her being my girlfriend. However, I want her to be my friend. I want to do things with her still. I will contact her tomorrow, Tuesday, on what day we are going to meet.
So far, the ways that I feel better is by looking at other girls or just talking with other people. The other method is being with Michelle. It’s not just having here there, but to have a connection on some level with her. For example, touching her thigh while we talk. She treated me quite cold at the Sunday dinner and I did not like that. I know we are not together, but does she have to treat me like a stranger…. it hurts that I feel absolutely no love from her. She does not seem happy around me.
If Michelle and I don’t work out, I will try to talk to Nancy to see what she has to say. Then talk to Mike if he really knows anything. It seems like Mike is becoming Michelle new best friend and I’m jealous. She keeps hanging out with him and inviting him to things. I feel lonely and left out. I want to hang out too. Or does she not care about me such that she does not think of me at all? I don’t want that to happen.
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