Getting Lost with Michelle

Around 5:50PM today, Michelle called me which was quite surprising. Usually I am the one to call her. She was bored and wanted to get out of the house so she decided to come to my place. She brought her computer, planning to study later but decided she wanted to go on an adventure and get lost in Gainesville.

So we drove around Gainesville. I was a good boy and was not touchy. When we were deciding what to order at Sonny’s, she said I was so indecisive. Which is true. Later when we went to Bed, Bath and Beyond near Oaks Mall. At Bed, Bath, I asked who she went swimming with. She replied “People”. Why won’t she just tell me? Yes, I might be asking a little too much, but it seems like she omitted telling me what she did over summer even when we still were together. I don’t like that feeling of being out of the loop. She’s hiding information from me…. but I do somewhat stalk her. I’ll have to fix the stalking part.

Then we went to Cold Stone on Newberry. I wanted to share, but she wanted to get her own. I assume she just didn’t want to share with me… She didn’t offer me to taste her ice cream either…I suppose that is reserved for couples maybe? But not necessarily.

Michelle seems to get annoyed more easily now than when we were in a relationship. But why? I basically acted more or less the same. Why would I be more annoying? Does her love for me cover my flaws, but when we aren’t it doesn’t? Kinda double standard but understandable.

Once we got back to my place, she used my bathroom. She said she was tired. I walked her to my car. On the walk, I touched her waist a little because I did not have body contact with her all day. She put her stuff in her car and initiated a hug. She end it earlier, but I kept hugging. I don’t know why, but her hug does not feel as comfortable as it once was when we were together. We didn’t really hug when we were in a relationship. We cuddled more. I feel that the car door closed before I was done wishing her a safe drive home…I didn’t like that. Now I miss her and feel a little depressed.

Although on occasion, Michelle does IM on Facebook. It’s a confusing relationship that supposedly time will solve. A part of me keeps wishing we will get back together….but I know it’s unlikely to happen.